Why do I always have to fuck up..

And I’m just laying here.. Thinking about you..
Hoping one day you will give me another chance..
I cant sleep without you.. I dont want to live without you..
I’m sorry for everything I’ve said and done..
I’ve made alot of mistakes but one thing that wasnt a mistake was me telling you that I love you..  

When I should of been lookin at it from yours.. You truly love me and I was always afraid you didnt really love me.. But its obvious you do.. You stayed with me when anyone else would of left.. And I didnt realize that till it was to late.. I always started fights cause I was just trying to get you to admit you didnt really want to be with me.. But you did want to be with me and I was just pushing you away.. I never wanted to push you away and I never wanted you to tell me you didnt want to be with me cause I truly love you and I wanted to be with you for the rest of my life.. I was so worried about you finding someone better that I wasnt being that someone.. I wasnt being the man that deserves someone so wonderful and so beautiful and so incredible.. I was being an immature douchebag.. I was only thinking about my feelings.. I wasnt thinking about yours.. And I’m truly sorry.. I was afraid you were gonna turn out like every other girl even though I knew you were different.. Everything with you was differet.. The way you made my whole body tingle just by kissing me.. The way I thought my heart was gonna explode whenever you told me you loved me.. The way you made me forget where I was because everything else would disappear.. It would be just us and it was so incredible.. Just being with you even if we werent doing anything was exactly where I wanted to be.. I didnt want anyone else but you.. And I took you for granted.. I pushed you away when all I wanted was to wake up next to your beautiful face every morning.. I dont know why I tend to push people away.. I’m sorry.. I love you and I always will.. I put you through so much shit when you mean the world to me.. I realize what I was doing wrong and I would never ever treat you like that again.. You are the greatest thing that has ever happened to me and I swear I will treat you like it.. I messed up.. I made mistakes.. And I cant take them back but I can try and make up for them.. I just want you back.. If not today.. Just someday.. I dont know how I could ever let you go.. You deserve the best and I will be that guy if you’ll let me.. I’ll love you forever and always..

One of the greatest moments of my whole life..
I’ve never felt anything like it.. 

Cause I’m just sittin here alone thinking about you.. I’m so low right now..

Cause then I might still have you..